I had a moment where I decided the things I really desired in life might not be for me. I was tired of hoping. Tired of wanting. Tired of watching others receive what I prayed for. After a few tears and some rest, God restored something in me. I realized I can be tired and still be open. I can sit in a space where I have no expectations, yet remain willing. Right now, I don’t have the energy to want. But I do have the capacity to be open. And that feels honest. I can build an