From Process to Promise

I had a moment where I decided the things I really desired in life might not be for me. I was tired of hoping. Tired of wanting. Tired of watching others receive what I prayed for.

After a few tears and some rest, God restored something in me. I realized I can be tired and still be open. I can sit in a space where I have no expectations, yet remain willing. Right now, I don’t have the energy to want. But I do have the capacity to be open. And that feels honest.

I can build and enjoy a beautiful life by surrendering to God’s will—allowing Him to guide me, and at times carry me.

While listening to a sermon by Sarah Jakes Roberts, something shifted in me. She spoke about not quitting in the process. The promise, she said, belongs to God. But the process lives within us—within our obedience. God shows up in the process too.

Sometimes the process feels heavier than the promise. So heavy that you forget what the promise even was. That part stayed with me. So, I made a decision. I will focus on my process and trust God to handle the promise.

The promise belongs to God. The process belongs to me.

I may not have the energy to desire right now, but I can obey. I can build. I can serve. I can move. If the door opens, I’ll walk through it. If it doesn’t, I’ll still live beautifully.

I don’t know what the promise looks like. But I know I’m still walking. And for now, that’s enough.

Later in the message, Sarah Jakes Roberts said something else that struck me deeply. She shared that we should let others see our process so they don’t only witness the promise and assume it was easy. Sharing the journey helps someone else endure theirs.

That felt like confirmation.

Maybe sharing the process is the assignment.

Maybe that’s what KRB Connect is becoming.

Life is the Lesson is me sharing my process. The book club is a space where we gather and share ours together.

At our last book club meetup, we discussed the book The World Is Waiting for You by Edwina Findley Dickerson. We talked about alignment, using fear as a signal, and allowing God to lead. What unfolded in that room was more than discussion. It was vulnerability. It was courage. It was healing. We realized how often we focus so heavily on the promise that we forget to cultivate joy in the present. We forget to prioritize ourselves in the becoming. So, that is what I am choosing now.

KRB Connect is my public journal. My cultivation of joy. For me. And for anyone walking through their own process.

I will have moments of doubt. But I can still create joy while the process unfolds. And maybe who I become within this process will be the promise I’ve been waiting for all along.

Where is God asking you to stay obedient in the process, even if the promise feels delayed?

By Karen (Renee) Beatty French